I’ve definitely been MIA of late, but it is certainly not for a lack of things to share. Life has been traveling at the speed of light lately, and finding time to sit in front of a computer (outside the 40 hours I get paid to do such things) has been extremely hard to come by. Still, the fast summer has sped away and the calming spirit of fall is now filling my life.
I’ve said it time and time again and will until my last breath, the moments God speaks to us through what seems like the everyday mundane to us are some of the sweetest words to my soul. Oh my, has He been speaking to me lately.
Have you ever been brave enough to stand on the edge of a high place? Ever been one of those folks to lean over the edge to see the view off the cliff straight down? That’s not me so much… I find those people very brave in some instances and very foolish in others. You want to truly become aware of the dangers of strolling along the edge of cliffs, buildings or bridges? Have your children with you. Every fear is heightened a million times over with the threat of those little people you love so much being in harms way getting close to that edge.
Does God feel any different for us?
The government shut down has greatly impacted my family as we have, without any choice of our own or even a planning period to prepare, gone from a two-income family to a one-income family. With one stroke of the clock our income was slashed. Praise God I am also working and my income has not been impacted. There are those, we know many, where both spouses work at a federal institution and currently have absolutely no income. My husband personally knows people who are picking up any odd job available just to have a source of income to support their family. I will not get into the politics of all the shutdown, but I will say that all sides have fault. The people are being used as pawns in a political game and families just trying to get by are causalities of this nasty war.
And God is still in control.
He knew back in March when our house sold in a whirlwind that we did not need that mortgage over our heads come October when we would lose half our income. He knew weeks ago when we decided to cancel our satellite TV service because we just did not watch that much television that one less bill would help us out tremendously during this time. He knew that, although tough, we needed this test for when we move and I do not have a job for a while. Now I am not suggesting God shutdown the government to teach the Kings a lesson, but I have all faith that He is using this time to strengthen us, to mold us, to teach us.
So what are we learning?
I’m learning that the light of God shines so brightly it will blind you from all the bad things when you are surrounded with people who hear His voice when He calls. I learned that fact as I stepped into my office one day last week to find an envelope slid under my door addressed to me and my family. With tear filled eyes, I read the note inside sharing how God wanted to bless my family through this person’s anonymous gift. I learned that I should never doubt His faithfulness as I counted the 5 $20 bills the envelope contained.
That is just one of the many blessings we have experienced since the government shutdown started.
Oh yes, we are standing very close to the cliff’s edge and the dangers that could be. Dangers of falling are intense. Dangers of losing so many things we consider important in a material sense are very real.
We could hang our heads and shake in fear. Or we could place our hands tightly into the love that will not let us go, and know that this too is preparing us for a joy that is to come.
O Love that will not let me go
I rest my weary soul in thee
I give thee back the life I owe
That in thine ocean depths its flow
May richer, fuller be
O Light that foll’west all my way
I yield my flick’ring torch to thee
My heart restores its borrowed ray
That in thy sunshine’s blaze its day
May brighter, fairer be
O Cross that liftest up my head
I dare not ask to fly from thee
I lay in dust life’s glory dead
And from the ground there blossoms red
Life that shall endless be
George Matheson, 1882