Not being fish food

When God is telling me something, I feel He uses my reading of His word to bring out points I need to see or do. I also feel like He’ll use Sunday School teachers and lessons, pastors and sermons and friends and encouragement. When it seems like all those combined, along with a few others, are telling me the same thing… well, I better listen.  I’m starting to feel like I might be headed for the belly of the fish.

Let me explain. I feel God gave me the vision and direction for Godstellations as a blog and as a Bible study on light. The Bible study part is always in my pocket, and I know someday it will bloom into a final product. Honestly though, that’s going to be a while. This blog is my fertilizer for that. I pray it will develop my writing and lead me down paths of being an encouragement to others as well as being encouraged by those I’m blessed to come in contact with in this venue. It also allows me an opportunity to share what God lays on my heart on a daily basis and discipline me to be faithful in listening for His word and sharing that with others.

I’ve shared this blog with a few friends, but I haven’t made it public to many people that I know personally. Oh, it’s easy to post things and send out to strangers, but the ones who know me best… for some reason, I’ve always been afraid of making that leap. Afraid of those that would judge to say, “Who does she think she is?”, afraid of rejection, afraid of failure. So my plan was to start the blog anew in 2015, and pray for God to give me courage to share what He has given me with others.

You know that line “be careful what you ask for”?

I love reading Becky Strale’s words and seeing her awesome pictures and creations on Farmgirl Paints. As I was visiting her site this week, I read her post about someone who said negative, hurtful things about her writing. Ugh! There’s my fear in reality, but then she said in her post to put the blinders on and “live out your calling.”  Seriously, that’s what I read. Live. Out. Your. Calling.

Our Sunday School lesson last week was being faithful to do what God has called us to do.

Our mission study in the Women on Mission group I’m in was to be committed to what we are called to do and God will put things in our path.

The Love Worth Finding daily email for today is…

 “Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ.” 1 Peter 3:16

My mind has been thinking about Jonah. God gave Jonah something very specific to do, but he didn’t want to do it. The Bible says, ““Jonah went out and sat down at a place east of the city. There he made a shelter, sat in its shade and waited to see what would happen to the city”  Jonah 4:5.  And we all know what happened to Jonah. God put him in the belly of the fish to think about what he had been asked to do and what he was doing.

I don’t want to be fish food.

Some writers and bloggers out there have words that are so eloquent and beautiful. Their grammar is pure perfection. The screen is a treasure chest of blessings written out in perfect harmony. They are like a bouquet of the most perfect roses you’ve ever seen… long stemmed, crimson red, gorgeous. God’s given them that gift, and I’m so thankful they share it.


My gift is more like this bouquet of Dandelions my daughter gave me. Oh, it’s not a bouquet of roses, but weeds. They have petals missing and even some dirt on them, but my precious child gave them to me. I think they are the most beautiful flowers I’ve ever seen because of the giver.

And so I’ll write and I’ll share what God has called me to do. Some will see the beauty in the simple words while others might see weeds, but I know that my Heavenly Father will call my bouquet of words beautiful as long as they are given in His name in kindness and love.

Are you struggling with something you feel God is calling you to do? Bathe that in prayer. Read His word. Listen for His reply. He’ll most assuredly give it. Then go forth and make that leap of faith, following His calling.

Don’t be fish food. 🙂

Counting 1000 Gifts – Something You’re Reading, Making, Seeing
#13 – I’m reading the IF:Equip daily Bible reading. It’s really helping me stay on track, and I’m thankful I found this gift.
#14 – I have the task of making Valentine center pieces for our church Valentin’e banquet. My soul is happiest when creating something.
#15 – My kids and I are working on learning new songs for Children’s Choir at church. They go around the house all day humming and singing the songs we are working on. I love seeing their love of music.

  • Rita

    God is speaking to you, Jen! Share your gifts! Find time for the Becoming course ! It seems the timing was meant just for you!

  • Janet Benson

    I just love this post. I know how hard this blogging thing is. It’s not easy to put yourself out there as a potential target. Good for you! Your writing is beautiful. You bless so many of us with your Godly wisdom, and you make me proud!